Shh! Mommy's Sleeping..

so let's...

-wake up really early and get Daddy up.

-run up and down the stairs and throw a screaming temper tantrum about breakfast

-let the kitties into Mommy's room so they can jump on her bed and cuddle with her

-run and scream as loud as we can upstairs

-turn on the lights and see if Mommy is still sleeping

Why do I think I might actually be able to sleep in some mornings instead of giving up and reading my book?

Late night or early morning?????

1:05 AM- "Mommy?" *sob*

"Huh?"

"Mommy" *sob* "I pottied my bed" *sob*

So I get up, change the sheets and jammies, discuss why we go potty BEFORE bedtime, and back in bed at 1:25, wide awake.

Then I use my then awake self to wake up my husband:) He didn't mind at all.

Who dressed this kid?

Yes, that is a forest green shirt, with army green pants, and if you look close, light lime green socks. They are all green, but do they match?? This is what happens when life gets busy and I don't set out clothes for my children each night!! One week left of the madness, then two weeks off! The only thing that would make it better is SNOW this weekend!! I'm hoping!

Two Months

It has been two months today since my miscarriage. I decided I'm going to get an angel ornament for our tree this year. It will be that baby's ornament so we will always remember it at this time of year.I'm sitting here wondering when the hole in my heart will get smaller, when I'll stop wishing for a baby, when will I feel "Great" not just good or okay. I'd be 28 weeks along now if the baby had survived. I'd be feeling all the kicks and movement. Instead I'm still on my period and feeling the bloat. Gotta love mother nature.

Gingerbread weekend!

We spent the weekend making 25 gingerbread houses at Mom's! It was a great time to visit with friends and family, but tiring. My house is done, and it is all BLUE! Colten got to decorate his own house this year and was so creative with it. Tony made one by himself as well, and made his best one ever. Great times, but I'm tired.

Colten's House

My BLUE House

Tony's House

The dam breaks...

... and the tears flow fast and furious. Lots of emotions, grief, anger, sadness, all flow out with the tears. I've heard the phrase "Tears are the grief flowing out to make room for happiness" but didn't understand it until now. Feeling better after the crying jag, probably the most I've cried in the last month.
The tears and emotions have been backing up in my mind these last few weeks. I'd start to leak and then pull everything back together until the next time. I finally let it all go last night. Feeling good, tired from being up late and looking awful, but feeling good and ready for gingerbread this weekend.

Where does it all go?

I'm frustrated, about money of all things. We've always lived on a tight budget, but you would think that if we've both gotten raises, then things should somehow be easier, right? Wrong! So, where does all that extra money from the raises go? The new car, the higher property taxes (they went up because we have a "view"), Internet connection, and cell phones. You would think we could manage to not spend as much when we get a raise, but something always seems to come up. Now my car is needing some work (new tires and brakes) and who knows what else might be needed. Some how it will all work out, hopefully soon!

On another note, my MIL is coming to visit for two weeks! Not for a friendly visit really, but because Tony's grandparents are having health problems. So we get a grandma visit for a while. It will be nice, but I hope she gets all she needs to done and still has time to relax a bit.