After nearly three years of silence, I got in touch again this week with one of my best college friends. She was my roommate for a semester sophomore year, and a dear friend all the rest of the time. She was the maid of honor in my wedding, and I was a bridesmaid in hers. We lost touch three years ago. So much was going on; her divorce and grad school, my kid and grad school, life got too busy to keep up. We connected though, thanks to Google and Facebook.
I called Nicole last night and we ended up talking for 1 1/2 hours! It was great to hear how well she is doing, and to talk with someone who is grieving this season. I was amazed at how after so long, we still had things in common and a wonderful sense of love and support. That is true friendship, one that can endure a three year gap! I didn't get much sleep, I've been averaging 4-5 hours a night, and if you know me I need at least 8 to function. I planned to go to bed early last night, but was up late talking, and I didn't care. Our re-connection left me with a sense of peace to go to sleep, until the alarm this morning.
I also got friend requests from some people I haven't seen in over 10 years. It was intriguing to get the request from former boyfriends. I haven't commented or chatted with him much, but still, I was amazed at how much people change, and yet look the same, ten years later.
In other news, the Jeep went to the dealer today to get fixed. Our mechanic didn't want to mess with the electronic transmission and told us to take it to the dealer, but thankfully the warranty is still good on it! I am happy about that!
I really needed the Jeep to get out of the boonies today. Water was flowing fast and furious in seven places on the road. One place not far from our house is a field that always floods, and deep. It was so deep I couldn't see the road stripes! I called Tony and told him that he needed to go around (10 min out of the way) to get to the sitters and not to take my little Honda through it. He was frustrated with the detour, but I don't think my car would have crossed it and not gotten bogged.
Things are getting back to normal and better around the house now that we're all back from vacation. Of course, Colten didn't have school today so that might wind him up. Now if only I can get some solid hours of sleep.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Mended fences
I mended a friendship fence today. I talked with my babysitter's daughter who lost her baby to pre-term labor 10 days ago. We had a good talk and I'm happy she understood why I was avoiding her after my miscarriage. I gave her a book to help her and she was pleased because it was a book she had wanted because it had been recomended to her (by the same friend who recomended it to me!). When I am sad, I can remember that Taylor has her friend Erin playing with her up in Heaven. Now if I can just get some sleep these next few nights and be ready for all the "bellies" at church on Sunday.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Reflection on 2008
This is something I got from a friend and added my own responses.
1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?I experienced a late miscarriage.
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't have any resolutions but this next year's are to lose at least 10 pounds and to get pregnant again.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?No, unless you count my D&C as birth.
4. Did anyone close to you die?Yes, my baby Taylor at 18W5D
5. What countries did you visit?USA
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? A baby
7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 6/24- Day I got a BFP, 10/5-My birthday- Day I started spotting, 10/7-Day we found out our baby was dead, 10/8-Date of my D&C
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Battling depression and surviving the MC
9. What was your biggest failure? Getting upset with the kids and hubby so much when depressed.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Yes, Roto virus in Feb, Depressed summer and fall, Miscarriage in Oct.
11. What was the best thing you bought? New Jeep
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? My husband, he is totally selfless in giving me what I want and need.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Mine, I have been a nasty witch much of this year- on and off.
14. Where did most of your money go? My house and my cars
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Nothing really, I was just getting excited about the baby when I lost it.
16. What song will always remind you of 2008? "Love Story" by Taylor Swift- I heard it when I realized I was losing the baby.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Sadder
b) thinner or fatter? Thinner, but only by about 10 pounds
c) richer or poorer? Richer in family, poorer with money
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?Exercise and enjoyed every minute of being pregnant.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?Spending time on the computer, surfing the "net", and being a bum.
20. How did you spend Christmas? With my family
21. Did you fall in love in 2008?No, already in love with my husband and kids.
22. What was your favorite TV program? "Survivor" and "Amazing Race"
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?Hate is a strong word, so no.
24. What was the best book you read? The "Twilight" saga. I've only read it in the last week too.
25. What was your greatest musical discovery? Taylor Swift
26. What did you want and get? A bigger vehicle
27. What did you want and not get? My baby to be alive.
28. What was your favorite film of this year? Only saw one, "The Dark Knight"
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?I had dinner with my family and started losing Taylor, I turned 30.
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Still being pregnant, not feeling jealous of baby bellies.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?Fashion? Whatever was cheap and can be washed in my machine.
32. What kept you sane? Crying, blogging, exercising.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? None that I can think of right now.
34. What political issue stirred you the most? Education- who would Obama choose and our own Sup. of Ed. race.
35. Who did you miss? My baby, my mom when she was gone camping.
36. Who was the best new person you met? Facebook
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008. Live every moment to its fullest. That moment might be lost before you know it.
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. "Don't Blink" from Kenney Chesney.
1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?I experienced a late miscarriage.
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I didn't have any resolutions but this next year's are to lose at least 10 pounds and to get pregnant again.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?No, unless you count my D&C as birth.
4. Did anyone close to you die?Yes, my baby Taylor at 18W5D
5. What countries did you visit?USA
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? A baby
7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 6/24- Day I got a BFP, 10/5-My birthday- Day I started spotting, 10/7-Day we found out our baby was dead, 10/8-Date of my D&C
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Battling depression and surviving the MC
9. What was your biggest failure? Getting upset with the kids and hubby so much when depressed.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Yes, Roto virus in Feb, Depressed summer and fall, Miscarriage in Oct.
11. What was the best thing you bought? New Jeep
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? My husband, he is totally selfless in giving me what I want and need.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Mine, I have been a nasty witch much of this year- on and off.
14. Where did most of your money go? My house and my cars
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Nothing really, I was just getting excited about the baby when I lost it.
16. What song will always remind you of 2008? "Love Story" by Taylor Swift- I heard it when I realized I was losing the baby.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Sadder
b) thinner or fatter? Thinner, but only by about 10 pounds
c) richer or poorer? Richer in family, poorer with money
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?Exercise and enjoyed every minute of being pregnant.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?Spending time on the computer, surfing the "net", and being a bum.
20. How did you spend Christmas? With my family
21. Did you fall in love in 2008?No, already in love with my husband and kids.
22. What was your favorite TV program? "Survivor" and "Amazing Race"
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?Hate is a strong word, so no.
24. What was the best book you read? The "Twilight" saga. I've only read it in the last week too.
25. What was your greatest musical discovery? Taylor Swift
26. What did you want and get? A bigger vehicle
27. What did you want and not get? My baby to be alive.
28. What was your favorite film of this year? Only saw one, "The Dark Knight"
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?I had dinner with my family and started losing Taylor, I turned 30.
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Still being pregnant, not feeling jealous of baby bellies.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?Fashion? Whatever was cheap and can be washed in my machine.
32. What kept you sane? Crying, blogging, exercising.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? None that I can think of right now.
34. What political issue stirred you the most? Education- who would Obama choose and our own Sup. of Ed. race.
35. Who did you miss? My baby, my mom when she was gone camping.
36. Who was the best new person you met? Facebook
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008. Live every moment to its fullest. That moment might be lost before you know it.
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. "Don't Blink" from Kenney Chesney.
More snow!!
It's now snowing out again, not that the previous three inches from Friday have melted. Will I have school tomorrow?? Will I get off my hill?
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Back to work
Now that the weekend is here it is time for me to get back to work. I brought plenty of schoolwork home for vacation, but never was motivated to do it. I'll get to it...tonight. I've got to take the ornaments and decorations down this afternoon, but am enjoying the time alone while the boys are resting. Tomorrow is another busy day and then it's back to work on Monday.
Friday, January 2, 2009
One last day
Today is my last official day of vacation. I know there are two more days left until I go back to work, but it is still a little shocking. I had plans, big plans for all the things I would get done this break. Most of those plans involved working outside in my flowerbeds. I didn't touch them! All the snow and cold temps kept that from happening. I did get Carson's too small clothes put away in the attic yesterday. My mom got me some of those space bags that you vacuum the air out of, and they work great for putting all the clothes in. I didn't use them all, but I did use 8 bags to pack stuff in. The packages were a little awkward to stack in the attic, but they were easier to lift and move than the big diaper boxes I usually pack things in.
Many things still need to be done. I need to put all the Christmas decorations away and write thank you cards for all those gifts from people. I need to correct papers and get to work on school work, but that will likely be done Sunday.
We got propane today!!! I was so happy to see the delivery truck come up our hill. The driver didn't think he could back down the driveway so he parked on the hill and pulled the hose through the trees. It is so nice not to worry about the heat and if the tank will run out or needing to fill the small tanks every other day. This tank should last us until March if we keep using like we have. Hopefully it won't snow too much in March so we can get our delivery on time.
The boys and I were out playing in the snow. Colten loves playing in it, but Carson still just stood and cried. He even started crying before going outside this time. He trips on things hidden in the snow and gets so mad when he falls. He did enjoy holding my hand and walking around for a bit.
Tonight the family is all going to the Spanaway park lights. We got a free ticket in from a friend and even though it is a drive for us, it should be fun, especially since we didn't get to drive around and look at lights on Christmas Eve.
Now that all the holidays are over I've got to get focused back on work. I like how we have intermittent three day weekends or more each month until the end of the school year. Of course my year is now three days longer due to snow!
Many things still need to be done. I need to put all the Christmas decorations away and write thank you cards for all those gifts from people. I need to correct papers and get to work on school work, but that will likely be done Sunday.
We got propane today!!! I was so happy to see the delivery truck come up our hill. The driver didn't think he could back down the driveway so he parked on the hill and pulled the hose through the trees. It is so nice not to worry about the heat and if the tank will run out or needing to fill the small tanks every other day. This tank should last us until March if we keep using like we have. Hopefully it won't snow too much in March so we can get our delivery on time.
The boys and I were out playing in the snow. Colten loves playing in it, but Carson still just stood and cried. He even started crying before going outside this time. He trips on things hidden in the snow and gets so mad when he falls. He did enjoy holding my hand and walking around for a bit.
Tonight the family is all going to the Spanaway park lights. We got a free ticket in from a friend and even though it is a drive for us, it should be fun, especially since we didn't get to drive around and look at lights on Christmas Eve.
Now that all the holidays are over I've got to get focused back on work. I like how we have intermittent three day weekends or more each month until the end of the school year. Of course my year is now three days longer due to snow!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
My happy New Year
The kids were at grandma's for the night and we had no plans for NYE. What were we to do? We went out to dinner and then after went to a friend of Tony's. No big huge party, no annoying drunk people around. Tony and I talked and visited with people and counted down to midnight. A few drinks, a few friends, good times. It was nice. Now I get to go to a playdate at a friend on a wet and rainy day.
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